I know it can be very difficult to be happy and worry about nothing when your current reality is so far from what you want and you seem to be surrounded by problems you don’t know how to fix. However, hope and faith in a positive outcome is the most important part of your answer. You are totally capable of doing it but it will take some work on how you think about your life and future. You must stop falling into the victim mentality trap of blame and regret and become the Designer of Reality you are fully capable of being. You want to know the meaning of life? You are here to have fun becoming a creator and designer of new and improved versions of Reality. Your mission and objective when you got into this was to have an adventure learning to shape reality to your wishes and in the process improving everything in your path. The stumbling block is accepting and believing in your unlimited creative powers. Reality is not out there somewhere – it is all in your heart and mind. Take charge – it’s a lot more satisfying and fun.
You might be thinking however that if it was not for some of the jerks you are forced to deal with you could be happy. You don’t get off that easy because while it is always easier going if you hang out with positive optimistic people, ultimately it is always your decision as to how you feel and what you believe. What you think about everything is your choice. Your life is a tale you are weaving and conjuring into being based on past and present experiences. The key piece of the puzzle is that you never need be limited or held back by anything that has already happened.
When you are feeling stuck in a place you don't want to be, it can be very useful to reclaim your Spiritual foundation. Part of my start on a metaphysical/Spiritual path many years previously had been when I listened to a set of tapes called “All About Goals” by Jack Boland. I listened to the tape series as part of a business success program but Jack’s message brought together my business and Spiritual paths in a powerful way. I was to find out that Jack Boland was a Unity Minister. Thanks to Jack, over the years I got involved with Unity which is a non-denominational Spiritual organization based on the teachings of Jesus. While you could not say that it was non-religious, it was more about Jesus’ teachings as a successful living system. It is non-judgmental, welcoming to all and focused on positive expectation and appreciation. Knock and the door will be opened. You can investigate for yourself if you are interested - visit http://www.dailyword.com/ as a good place to start. Since you will come to find that worry and fear are the two biggest obstacles to your success, finding ways to eliminate those feelings from your day is extremely important. One of the best ways to do this is to starting your day with 15-20 minutes of meditation (which we shall discuss a little further on). A dose of positive thoughts from The Daily Word is another addition to your morning routine to help you get your day off to a good start.
It needs to be pointed out though that it is still all on you. Once when I was in a place I did not like, I got very involved with a local Unity church in hopes of doing good and soaking up some positivibes. I went so far as to become President of the Board of Directors of the church in my effort to get back on track. I think I made a contribution to the organization and I did several talks that I hope were inspiring to some but for me it was not what I needed. From a philosophical viewpoint it was right on track but my feeling was that too many of the people in the church were there to be “fixed” and I came to realize I was one of them. Like looking to a Priest or Rabbi or a Professional Counselor that can talk to you and share ideas with you can be helpful, ultimately it comes down to YOU. It is you who must decide you are going to accept that you are totally worthy and deserving of everything you want. You must make a decision to stop feeling sorry for yourself and JUST START FOCUSING ON THINGS YOU ARE HAPPY ABOUT!